What The Hell!

What is going on??? Another child in the town I live in has committed suicide on Wednesday! I talked to Zachary's counselor and this boy was at another middle school and was in the same program as my son. I don't get it, such young lives, it this becoming and epidemic? My son hasn't stopped talking about the first kid, this other boy he doesn't know so I think the chatter will be light. But quite honestly, I wish he would stop talking about this other kid.

Off To The Sticks

This weekend I am off to see my parents, Yeah...I am so excited. I haven't seem my Mom and Dad since November. There will be no weigh in this week so hopefully there will be a great one for next week. At the same time I am a little nervous to see my Mom though. She has had some weight issues for the last year and it is on a different level than me. She can't seem to keep the weigh on! She told me she is down to 100 lbs and that it has been hard for her to maintain that weight! The doctors say she is healthy, but I have had a hard time with that statement.

I will most defiantly try to post at least once but if not I will be back Sunday. We have a laptop too but since they live in the sticks of New Hampshire it may not get the service I need to get on the internet. She does have a computer, so I may just use hers. I have everything I need in my laptop memory so it would be ideal for me to use that over the desktop.

Signs and Steps

These last couple days there has been a lot of talk about this boy who committed suicide. The boys in my son's class have spent a lot of time talking about different signs, how they may feel and what they should do if they had a friend who may be talking about wanting to commit suicide. I think it is a great thing, it's not like puberty, you know, something you MUST discuss. For me it is one of those conversations I hoped to NEVER have with Zachary. I am glad though that the program my son is in brought in counselors to talk to them.


Warning Signs for Suicide
Suicidal talk
Preoccupation with death and dying
Signs of depression
Behavioral changes
Giving away special possessions and making arrangements to take care of unfinished business
Difficulty with appetite and sleep
Taking excessive risks
Increased drug use
Loss of interest in usual activities


Three steps teens can take
Take your friend’s actions seriously
Encourage your friend to seek professional help, accompany if necessary
Talk to an adult you trust. Don’t be alone in helping your friend

Very Sad Day

Yesterday my son calls me when he gets home from school and I could hear a that he was a bit agitated. Immediately he told me of a schoolmate, when he told me the name I remembered it from last year and seeing as Zachary is in a special class away from the mainstream this year I hadn't heard the name at all.

This boy, and 8th grader, one year older than my son, had committed suicide the night before. It was a shock to me, I know that kids feel bad about themselves and their situations, and it is not like I hadn't heard of a child doing this before, I guess it is just that it was never so close to home.

I saddens me that a child could feel so badly about themselves and feel so bad that for them life is not worth living. Made me wonder, did he give any warning signs, was he getting help, did his only parent care and where is his other parent? There is no hiding the fact that there are a lot of parents who may love their kids but are more wrapped up in other things to see the situation at hand.

My son gets mad at me a lot because he has to be home at a certain time and he needs to check in with me. He says some of his friends make fun of him for it and for me, I don't care that his friends make fun of him, unfortunately a few of his friends are allowed to come and go as they please. In his class their is a 6th grader who is allowed to do what he wants! He comes home when he pleases and has no responsibilities, doesn't always show up for school. In my son's own words "His mom doesn't care about him." To clarify that statement I asked Zachary if she didn't care bout what he did and they reply was gut wrenching "No Mom, his mom does not care about him at all!"

My heart goes out to this family that just lost their son. I don't know the situation and I am not hear to judge or assume what family life was like. A lot of families that look happy on the outside are not behind close doors. Your child is at peace right now and the demons that got a hold of him can no longer eat away at his young soul. Remember him for who he was, love and cherish your memories...

Going To Be A Long Day

I am tired this morning. I slept like crap and really don't feel like going to work! Maybe I need some energy pills and then again maybe not! I really think I have had enough of where I work and it maybe time to move along. I am months shy of being there four years, hasn't been a bad stint, but the new Director of Quality is making me his personal secretary. I am not a secretary and nor do I ever plan to be. He often uses my review and raise as leverage. I don't really think it is fair and he should not be allowed to do that. He seems to do it when I question something new to my workload. Much if the new stuff is not in my job description and really is stuff I am not interested in doing. Being that it comes from my boss, how do I say no? I can't!!

My Poor Mom

I feel bad for her, she had her hours cut at work and then the shithead owner cuts her pay from $18.00 to $15.00 an hour. She did manage to find another part time job paying $8.00! They live in the sticks of New Hampshire so the pay is low and good jobs are scarce. Ireally wished that they never moved up there. Just dusting off the old resume templates doesn't really do it!

Yesterday she sent me several emails about work at home jobs wondering what I thought of them. I know there are some legitimate companies, but I don't know who or what they are. I never imagined that my parents would go through such a trying time. I mean, geez, are 10-15 years from retirement, have their dream home and now all this.

If you know of any legitimate companies please email me at adayinthezone@gmail.com
I don't want to see her get scammed!!

Small Changes

So I made a couple of changes here at my blog. First one, at the very top is a link to my weekly weigh in's. Click the link and all my weekly losses and gains are there. If it says No Weigh In, well I didn't go that week!

Another change is at the Health Observance's. These are each linked to a site where you can get more information about them.

I Feel Pretty, Oh so Pretty

Yesterday was a great spring day. The sun was out, it was 59 degrees. Couldn't have asked for a better day.

Yesterday was weigh in day again. I went there with such great confidence, feeling that I had done well, yet remembering that there could always be the chance for disappointment. But I wasn't worried. When I go to Weight Watcher's and get on that scale I always aim to lose a pound at the minimum. When I lose more, I am thrilled and of course when I lose less or nothing at all, ugh! Getting off track again, so back to yesterday. There I am getting ready to get on that scale. The leader asked how my week was and I responded "Well, let's just say that I had and awesome week!" I get on the scale, she writes my new weight down, looks at my old weight and here comes a loud "Holy Cow, what did you do this week?" Yes ladies and gentleman I lost S-I-X pounds this week for a total of 17.4 pounds. That puts me 6 pounds away from my first weight loss goal and my new fingernails!